I don't know how to react.

My brother just called. My dad is in the hospital. He's been feeling sick to his stomach and dizzy when he was out walking over the last few months and finally went to a doctor about it. Now he's scheduled to have sextuple bypass surgery tomorrow - today actually, since it's after midnight now.

I'm in shock. I don't know how I feel or what to think.

So many things are swirling through my head right now. I could lose my father. Probably not. This isn't exactly experimental surgery, they've been doing it for decades. It's still major surgery, though. Stuff happens; people die sometimes.

Not to mention my own health. I've never considered myself high risk for heart disease, but all at once I have something new to add to my medical history. What does this mean? Do I need to go to the doctor? There've been some weird things happening to me that I just dismissed as life and getting older, but now I'm wondering if it all means something bad.

I can call Dad tomorrow after his surgery. Maybe I'll know what to say to him then.

I've got good genetics. All of my grandparents were in their late 80's when they died. Dad's always sworn he was going to live to be 100. I never seriously considered he might not. I never seriously considered that I might not.